Well, well, look at that.
It only seems like yesterday I was sipping on a freshly made cuppa, nibbling on a biscuit or two (or ten!), thinking to myself, “How in the world am I meant to do this?!”.
It turns out; it was yesterday. I thought that, like I do quite often. Doubting myself has been quite a big part of my life because I never entirely fitted in with the world. But since participating in the Student Leadership Academy (SLA) and working with professionals and other students with similar goals, I’ve realised that perhaps it was the world that never quite fitted in with my ambitions. So I thought, instead of trying to change myself, I should try to change the world… OK, maybe not the world because that’s a bit daunting, but you get the picture. It sounds cliché, but it’ll make sense further on. This video was shown to us during one of our sessions and, it was good food for thought…

When it came to applying for a place in the SLA, I was yo-yo-ing between clicking submit and just deleting everything, shutting my laptop down and throwing it out the window. I chose the former, but I’ve been close to the latter more times than I can count. And, wow, I’m glad I clicked submit! That was my first step towards actively developing my leadership identity, although I didn’t know I needed it until the Academy started. Without the SLA, I wouldn’t have seen how much potential I have in terms influencing others to start believing in themselves. Not quite the world, but perhaps those closest to me, those I think may need a little push. Of course, before that, I had to learn to believe in myself first, which was not an easy feat. At all. However, being amongst professionals, current and past SLA students, lecturers and,, guest speakers gave me a boost in confidence. We were all there for many reasons; some were shared; others were more personal. But there was one recurring theme – leadership, of course! Seeing how different people had similar goals to me, wanting to make a difference, not just for myself but also for others, reassured me that I wasn’t alone in wanting to help myself and others see the world and themselves a bit differently.
I learned that I was behaving and thinking like a leader when doing some everyday tasks and interacting with those closest to me. Leadership isn’t wholly about taking control, and all of a sudden becoming the leader of the pack. It’s quite the opposite. A lot of it is quietly mulling over difficult decisions, alone or with others; showing compassion towards and advocating for others; gently encouraging others to pursue their wants and needs; guiding peers; mentoring someone younger than you; giving an insecure or fearful person some of your time. Leadership isn’t about showing off or being the lone wolf and doing everything on your own. A lot of the time, showing people that you can be vulnerable, have your struggles, and are not ashamed about leaning on others for support is the right way of inspiring someone to seek help for the first time or gently encouraging someone to pursue their dream career.
It is hard. It’s not going to happen over-night. This is only the start of my leadership journey, and I feel it will continue for quite a while longer. This explanation has only scratched the surface of what the SLA can do with and for you. There are so many ways that leadership is shown and experienced – figuring out my way of leading and leadership was yet another step forward. Recognising how I best showed and practised leadership without even knowing it helped me understand how I tick, personally and professionally, to develop my strengths and nurture my weaknesses (which would help me become a better nurse). I’ve figured my leadership style is through showing compassion and, on occasion, putting myself first when I need to when I’m exhausted or anxious. I’m also open-minded, which helps me explain certain things to people, guiding them towards a better understanding of this ever-changing world.

So, I’d taken a step forward by simply applying for the SLA and another step forward for recognising and learning what my leadership style is. Now, you might be wondering how and why I took a step back. Well, to figure out my leadership style, better myself and write this entry, I had to take a step back (sometimes, a leap) to realise my ambitions in simpler terms. I had to step back to reflect and process experiences and feelings. This is called emotional intelligence – two words, but A LOT of meaning. Check it out yourself here! Being someone who suffers from a diagnosed anxiety disorder, delving deep into my thoughts and emotions isn’t hard. Still, instead of seeing this as such a negative thing, I’ve tried very hard to see my anxiety in a brighter light. And it’s not perfect, but I’ve been able to use my own struggles to lead those in the shadows (the place I used to hang out before ‘befriending’ my anxiety) out into a different light. Especially as I’m training to be a Mental Health Nurse, this has allowed me to make meaningful connections and look out for those who may be struggling in silence. So, although taking a step back may seem like a negative thing that slows you down, sometimes it’s necessary, especially now during the pandemic. Taking a step back is nothing to be ashamed of, but it’s also something that doesn’t have to be done alone.
“a LEADER is one who KNOWS the way, GOES the way, and SHOWS the way”
John C Maxwell, American leadership author and speaker.
I genuinely enjoyed the sessions the group and, I had together. Although our last meet-up was via Zoom, the rush of ideas, inspiration and camaraderie were still felt, despite the digital barrier. The lively discussions, the relaxed vibe which filled the room (and Zoom!), all the ideas and ‘lightbulb’ moments… We were unstoppable! We ARE unstoppable! And so, I will finish this entry off by saying that honestly, there’s nothing better than a nice cuppa and a biscuit- I mean, a nice chat with others who are driven, just as you are, by the passion and insight of a good leader.

And, “Why should I be one of those leaders?”, I hear you ask…
Well… Why not?
Bethan Allen (Mental Health Nursing Student)

























