When I started my journey into becoming a nurse, leadership honestly never crossed my mind. The leap into a brand-new career in an industry that was completely alien to me felt like a challenge enough at the time. I remember my first day in lectures, listening intently to other students sharing the snippets of knowledge that they already had about health care, taking pages of overly detailed notes, and feeling that I would never catch up with the basics of care, let alone leading colleagues one day in the far-off future.
A few weeks into the course, we were introduced to the Swansea University Student Leadership Academy. Those first couple of weeks had totally overwhelmed me, and I knew I wanted to grasp at any opportunity to better my knowledge and improve my practice when placement started. I had never considered myself a leader, even when I had undertaken my previous degrees and had been in a steady job, and I thought the course could turn that around and improve my confidence. I sent off my application and waited, not sure what to expect.
When I was accepted onto the course, I was surprised but so pleased. I was looking forward to adding to my knowledge base and meeting other people who were going through the same transition as me. By this point, some months into our first year, I had yet to really meet the other members of my cohort as our learning was still online. Knowing that I would soon be meeting other people who I could relate to was an exciting prospect.

I was nervous on that first day. But my nerves quickly disappeared when we started the ice breaker activity and I got to know everyone. What followed was an insightful day exploring emotional intelligence and its application in nursing. Prior to this, I had no idea what emotional intelligence was and why it is so important in health care but, after making a digital poster with my peers, I came to realise it plays a huge role in practising self-regulation, being an empathetic practitioner and effectively reflecting and improving my practice. It was a big learning curve for me, but I know using it will make me a better nurse when I qualify.
The second day of the conference was equally important, teaching lessons in compassionate and authentic leadership, encouraging us to be ourselves when leading others. Learning about authentic leadership touched upon my own issues with self-confidence. I’ve never been an overly confident person and have always questioned my judgement and abilities. I have been extremely critical of myself in the past and the talks we had in the conference helped be to recognise that I should have faith in my competency. I now know that a true leader is someone who inspires others, builds their confidence, and shows empathy and compassion. By being compassionate to myself and building my own confidence, I have been able to take the first steps to becoming a leader myself.
The lesson that stuck with me the most, however, was overcoming imposter syndrome. My struggles with confidence come back into play here. When I do have successes in any part of my life, I struggle to celebrate these and often find fault in them or feel that there has been some kind of mistake. I realise success never comes without hard work and dedication, but I have such difficulty recognising I am worthy of my successes. However, the talk made me realise that imposter syndrome is a very common feeling for everyone, no matter their capabilities, and helped me to come up with my own tricks to overcome these feelings. Now I actively listen to positive feedback on placement and in my work and try not to discount it, and I try to accept that I have played a role in successes. It is an ongoing journey but one that will be worthwhile in the future.
We were so fortunate to have amazing speakers at the conference including Jason Killens, the Chief Executive Welsh Ambulance Service Trust. His talk entitled ‘My Leadership Journey’ was so insightful and gave me the understanding that leaders are born from all walks of life and that we all have individual journeys to go through to maximise our potential and be a leader. It surprised me to hear that he and others who have achieved amazing things in their field even experience imposter syndrome from time to time. It really did make me feel that I was not alone in lacking confidence.
As I’ve gone through my training and been out on clinical placement, I’ve started to recognise leadership qualities and realise that we can all be leaders. I’ve had the privilege of working with wonderfully talented individuals and within excellent multi-disciplinary teams who exhibit leadership skills including collaboration, patience, passion, self-awareness, problem-solving, empathy and trust, as well as a whole lot more. Being part of the leadership academy has helped me to identify those qualities and to bring them into my own practice.
But the main takeaway from this for me has been to have faith in myself, and to shunt that imposter syndrome to one side while I continue my journey to qualifying and getting that important registration. Starting all over again in a brand-new career was a big leap for me and joining the Leadership Academy felt like a scary jump into the unknown too. But I have learnt that with faith and confidence, I can do anything I put my mind to, and that I can take that forward into becoming a leader. We are all leaders in our own way and should use our qualities and skills to build each other up to achieve success together.
Looking back, I am beyond grateful that I sent off that application. It has been such a journey in challenging my self-esteem and confidence issues and overcoming that dreaded imposter syndrome to recognise that I can be a leader, and that I can contribute something worthwhile to the NHS.
Gemma Flynn 2nd year mental health nursing student.














